Wiltbank Family: First Day of School

Today was the first day of school. I think the summer flew by. Yes my sweet kids were ready to eat each other alive the last few days but I will miss having them here and the simple slow down of the summer. Now I get to live in the suburban. I laid awake all night not sure about my new situation. I only have one little cutie left at home. Some of the time she will be at preschool. I am a bit frightened of being alone. All this time I have loved to be surrounded by little ones. Helping with their needs and the snuggling. I know they are only gone for a little while each day But eventually they will be all grown up. I also worried a lot about Wyatt and if he will actually go to school and like it. Trett and his eye also kept me up a lot. Ashtyn and Weston making bigger decisions that are more important to their life. I know all will be well if I just trust in my Father in Heaven and continue to teach them (maybe up that a lot more). I guess I just need to figure out who I am and what it is I want to accomplish and what I want for my kids. I definitely want to be available to them.

Enough about me. A few cute things that happened. Yesterday Wyatt was a bit nervous about going to kindergarten. He wanted to know why he couldn't just stay home. I of course would love to have him here but knew he had a SUPER teacher and would have a great year. Then last night he said, "I just don't think I can do it." Trett and I reassured him things would be great and Trett promised him he would meet him at his door after school to help him find me. This morning Trett said he had butterflies and all agreed they did too. Except for Wes he had already left and was well....... doing fine. Ella was up and ready. She was so excited she could hardly stand it. She wanted something quick and fast done with her hair, "Just a quick pony, okay mom?" She walked with us into the school to take the kids to their room. Then she was upset when she had to go back home and wait for her school to start. She was so mad she stayed in the suburban for a while. Then she came in mad and said, "see I have nothing to do." (Hope she likes the rest of the week with JUST her mom) Then when it was finally time to go she ran out the front door yelling, "yeah its time to go!" Then at school she was a bit nervous. Then when I went to leave I said bye Ella and she quickly and very sure said BYE! Sometimes I wonder why Ella came last. She is so sure of things and always takes care of everyone. The more I think of it. She was probably in heaven making sure the other kids all made it off just right then she came. And I don't think that I would make it if I had one like Wyatt last. One that wanted to stay home. I need that push that only Ella can give.